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1. Carlisle Cullen       Twilight saga
2. the tenth                    Doctor Who
3. Charlie Epps           Numb3rs
4. Sam Winchester     Supernatual
5. Dr. Hunt                    Grey's Anatomy
6.Daniel Jackson        SG1
7.Oliver Queen            Smallvill
8.Recruiting officer     Army Wives
9.Blair Sandburg        The Sentenal

all over.. got to get new hobby and maybe a degree. one never knows with life does one?

Ok I am working on moving in across the bay and starting a new job soon as well as new relationship.  I am so twitterpated by this relationship.

Ok I have not written here in ages. I am better now that I am becoming a FOMA. I feel complete and that I am doing something worth my while. I miss the educational setting of Ashford. I plan to do that again as soon as I get it payed off. for more updates go to my Myspace.

I am now done with JC and finished with my first course toward my BA in Psychology. I am happy and reading allot more. I am selling allot of books on Amazon and piecing my life back together slowly.Nothing like being single to make a person feel strong and smart. I see that once I am educated I will find the one I want or he will find me, til' then I am to date and check out what is out there.. or be single for a while. Being single is so nice. I can be my self.

I passed the physical and am sighned up to be a Yeoman in the Navy. I am going to bootcamp July 9th! I am gone for 2 months and then home for 2 weeks and then gone again for 2 months. My Navy training is near Chicago and my Yeoman training is in Pensicola Florida. I am both excited and scared. I have to loose 10 pounds! I have 1 month. I will miss allot of things. I am sighned up for 4 years and I will exstend my enlistment if I really like it. I am doing clarical and secritary work. I am glad to be in an office and to be close to those in charge. I am in the same post my grandpa Wilson was. I think he would be so proud.

I find I am not working but one day next week. I am going to a comic convention and then the next day to the viverium. I miss working at a wonderfuly steady pace. I am hoping that all the study and working out will pay off sooner or later. I am thinking that anuther month will suffice and theat there will be no worries to be had at that point. I have read allot if not all the FF on Marvel.com and I love it even more. Wish I had a subscription. the 44 years of ff is 35 or so dollers. I wish also for more muhla! I wish as well to be a better woman.

most Handsome list:

1. My Boyfriend!
2. the tenth Doctor Who
3. the math professor on Numb3rs
4. Sam on Supernatual or maybe both those men
5. McDreamy from Grey's Anatomy
6. SG1 the series's Daniel Jackson
7. Lex Luthor on Smallvill


that's all the men I can think of.

what are your thoughts.. what's you list?

I am studying and loosing some weight. I hope I suceed.

droped Ceramics. Well that was it for Ohlone. I am still working 30 hours at JCP and have taken the ASVAB one time. I am joining the Navy. after failing the test it was as if they thought less of me. I am studying and hope to pass the test in 30 days time as well as loose 15 pounds. I think I hung up on the girl last night who said she would help me loose weight. I will miss all the ladys I work with. I hope the navy will take me. basic seems hard, but doable. I have alwayse loved the sea.. she is my stregnth. My bf is awsome. I did not tell him at first, but now that we got that out of the way he is so awsome. I love him so.

So I droped all but my Ceramics classes. I feel a certain loss though. I am hoping to sighn up for city classes soon. They are $75 each though! Exspensive. I really want to better my finances and work load. I am working 30 hours a week and feel tired and depressed allot. I hope this all works out.

I watched 2 episodes tonight. I like the most recent doctor best. Not only is he sexy, but he's perky and has a sense of justice. Rose is alwayse a beauty and she is smart and giving. The writers and actors do an awsome job of making the charactors so strongly connected. I saw the las episode so far. The bride and the doctor. I cryed my eyes out.Poor rose! I do hope they continue to make Dr. Who. I love it so much. I love Robin Hood as well and he is just juicy and sexy and steamy. I like his spark and vim. He is so handsome. I get so into the acting and the charactors. I like Will Scarlet because he is just so wise and just. He is with Robin because he wants peace. Robin him self is so different from the legend. I like the idea that he was more of a peace loving gentleman. Ok while I am on my BBC kick I like My Hero as well, even though it seems not to be on anymore. Guess I am either odd or sophisticated in my taste of TV now a days. Thank You so much BBC!!

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Ok. I have been going to school and studying ceramics. I was reg for Math ane English, but I droped them. I do want to get an education, so I need money, so I am doing phlobotomy or bakc office work. At least that's the plan. for now. JC is well and doing photography personaly I hope he starts to work for someone and then gets his own clients. or is with the catoring comp for a while and picks up clientel there. I am worried that I will never get married and have kids like I want to. At this pace, who knows. My cousins are a sucess and I am floping arround like a fish out of water. They all became nurses and mathmaticians and I am here with my AS in psych. it's something, but not all that mutch. I miss the enthusiasm I had in high school and the idealism I had there. Sometimes I think I will be stuck with retail. JCP is working out really well and I am going to ask for more hours. it's off season. Hope to get a second job or allot more hours.. need money for bills. Like life is ever fair to anyone.

worked there for 2 weeks officialy now. JR and MS. Nice place to work ran into fello alumni. got dissaproval from R for not having taken chances.. he is a little dense.cleaned cat hair and box.want JD but already have PD and want BSP. Only if life could slow down a little. I remember getting my AS and thinking I would get my BS and MS at the same time. Not so.. I am now 23 and working and not doing school.Life's like that I gather and I am not different from my piers. Need to study and need to get educated or I will perish and feel malnutricious. oh help! G is well and a bit grumpy APU. He is planing on photography and I hope we can swing it. cameras are exspensive and so is the training.. he could go into ad. I should let him tell me and mo what he wants.. instead of telling her what he should do. I need to just get a job that can pay for us a bit while we go to OC and CSUEB. how to do it.. I know not so far.

So I awoke at 10 and thought it was noon. I went to MP and worked for 3 hours. My cat Terra died on my lunch break, so I took the day off. My mother came home and we went to RL with B,S and C. G came along and has beel living with us for 2 weeks now. He brought me a bunch of red roses.. so sweet. day befour yesterday and the few dayse befour that Terra had escaped and been out of the house. she came back and acted really quiet and hurt. Not supprising that she died when she did. buiried her in the side yard. Oreo and his brother are buried in the front yard and we got them when we got terra. Now we only have a cat that G almost ran over who we named Lilith. She is black and white and really friendly. I quit Fry's 3 weeks ago and am glad to be at MP, but am considering working at JCP.

Ok so I do not post all that ofte, but as they say the rarity is the sweetness. In my case it goes double. I miss the people I used to know and seeing them again makes me shock to the days gone by and how quick people change. Friends to me are like a constant sea. I am looking back and I see there waves wash over me. Let not my mistakes make me wiser than they.

I would like to say how long it had been, but I am not shure.. is anyone still reading this crap? I do wonder who I am and such, so I guess I need approval from persons. I should post here more and try to keep up a network of people that I am in contact with. Much of what I put here I can say or do in no other forum. G is still in the pic and FE is something I want to forget. I did not give my notice and I think I got fired. I feel like coward and act like it in not being enough of a woman to go in and appologize to persons in charge. At this juncture it would make no difference since I am not with the company any more.G is still with J and that is to be expected.

H is so indecicive either that or he is still in love with G and I am really getting impatient. I think of him deep in side me like some sort of hook. makes me say the l word all the time and he never says it back. don't get me wrong copulation is torrific, but it gets sad afterword. he cleans up and acts like we are just bad news or some job. I want something stable.. something forever. I must learn to enjoy the moment. Forgive and forget.. even in the blues. I am not even on his myspace! his G is, but I am no good.. just no good for anything like that? well that's just sad as can bee. oh.. last night and this morning were good as can be, but after I felt so all alone that I could die. he closes off to me in his mind and it makes me want to die. Can't give him up though.. to lonely and to painful. the concert was nice and made me feel how I want to feel with him. I guess I am to passionate for my own good and he thinks so. he thinks I think to much and he thinks I talk way to much. he walks infront and I feel like he really does not want me accept for copulation. I am not a lady of the night, so why do I act like this.. someone rescue me, please and tell him in confidentiality that I am for real and I am worth a try as a woman and as a copulate. Does he know he's killing me? does he know the pain? apparently there is something missing in me that is in xG. and I can't ask him, cuz he will freak out and want to drop the idea. maybe it's like they say sometimes you just have to let wounds heel.

Well my day off was rather uneventful I think that there is something up with me.. I am anti social or something. Noone likes to talk to me for long periods of time. I guess I am a bit dry? Well Ali and Jorge like what I have to say I guess. I think I am waaay to much into my own world.. maybe I need what I can't have. Life sucks when you are interested in Psychoanalysis as an occupation.What it life but a bucket of stuff in a paper mill. working is a sham so I seem normal and socialize. Maybe some day I will be normal, but for now I am a soap ready to happen. I like relationships with men I can't realy have. How pathetic.. and girls don't want me.. oh well..like I really care about that drama.. it's superfluous.11 dad is home tomarrow. well I am wanting someone..he's not wanting me.. he wants someone older and wizer I guess. My bad. what a puzzle.